About 4 years ago, my husband was swinging on a hammock swing, hooked to a tree, the bolt broke off in the tree and he fell from 3 feet up onto a tree root and crushed his L2, a few years before that he slipped in a oil tank and had to have a total knee replacement. And in between those he broke his wrist by trying to do karate move and kick a punching bag in the garage---yeah, I know, I married a big kid. There was a mess with his insurance when he crushed his L2 so i played doctor and took out his stitches (they literally would not take his stitches out until they had their money for his surgery) and helped him day and night with his recovery. We survive on a fixed income. It gets our bills paid, but not much left over for anything else.
My kids are at an age where they should be enjoying after school activities and being with their friends. and we just can't afford that for them, so I feel like they are missing out. Fairs and festivals come and go and they always ask, "Will we be able to go this year?" I know my kids won’t forget this, and I feel like a failure. Sometimes all I can do is just cry and keep going.
I don't know any scriptures because we didn't grow up with church in our home. I knew about God and I certainly prayed to Him when I felt like I would die if things didn't turn out okay, but I didn't go beyond that even though I was curious. I didn't further my curiosity probably because I didn't have to best childhood.
I am a Hallmarkie from way back, and one day I came across Signed, Sealed, Delivered. It looked like nothing I had seen before, it intrigued me. I watched the Pilot, then For Christmas. I realized then that perhaps there were more, so I searched and found them and got all caught up. After a few months I quickly realized that the only way to keep up with the show and the cast was to join Twitter. Slowly but surely, I began to find other POstables that were warm and welcoming---it was such a high. And then the blog...WHAT?! I was in heaven! This community was what I was looking for, also what I really really needed. I may not know any scriptures, but I do know that I feel more at home here than anywhere outside of my family and friends. There are so many of us that you are guaranteed to have at least one, if not multiple, POstables that can identify with you and what you may be going through. It is that wisdom that I crave!
"One of the things Papa O'Toole and Paul struggle to do is "fix" their loved ones. It's important to remember that people can't "fix" other people or themselves---only God and His Grace can do that."
It reminded me that this wasn’t my battle to fight---it was God’s.
I’ve gained so much insight into myself, my behavior and finding ways to live a better life, no matter the circumstances.
One of my favorite quotes is, "This is not a race we run, Ms. Mclnerney. it's a journey,” and while it started out with a TV show, Signed, Sealed, Delivered has become so much more---a family that I adore, and would be even more excited to meet face to face than the cast. So thank you to those of you who have written a Living Letter, and those of you who may not even know that you are helping me through my journey just by being you! You truly remind me that, "No matter how dark it gets, love will always find its way in."
The Living Letters series continues as long as there are stories (or even praise reports) to share, and I'm always looking for submissions. If you would like to contribute something about how Signed, Sealed, Delivered has impacted your life (or even your wardrobe) that you'd be willing to share here on A&D, feel free to email me. Keep the good going and submit yours today!